One More Day and Then Some . . .

For Hope and Faith,

I haven't written you in a while.  Honestly, I have been trying to preoccupy my mind with anything but thoughts of you because my heart aches for you.  Sometimes when we love someone so much, it hurts us so much to even think about them when we know we can't see them.  I guess this is how people felt when my mom, your MawMaw was sick.  The truth is that I have been so excited about your arrival that there is simply no way to escape thoughts of you.  It would be like being pregnant and not thinking about the baby, which is probably why near the end of a pregnancy, moms-to-be tend to try anything to help labor start.  Like me, they just hardly can't wait to meet their babies.  Know that even though I haven't been writing, you are on my mind all of the time.  Your older brother, D., talks about you every day--he is so excited to meet you and for you to both come home.  He thought he saw the two of you at a DHR meeting and was so excited that he called me out of the room to tell me.  It seems as if every single person who has been praying for you and us asks if we have heard anything.  I almost don't want to leave the house until I have you with me.  All they know is that we have fallen in love with and are hoping to adopt two little girls, but I know that their care and concern shows how much they love us and you already.  When our worker called to tell us last week that she had our home study ready, but that we just needed to wait for her supervisor to come back in the office and that she would be out until April 14th, I decided not to do anything until that date.  Of course, it was short lived, but temporarily, I was just going to will myself into a state of suspended animation.  One of the things that I wasn't going to do was go to either the Foster and Adoptive Parents' Egg Hunt or the Church Egg Hunt.  I felt that you two should be there, too, and so I wasn't going without you.  Then, I got a call that you are may be at the FAPA egg hunt . . . tomorrow!  You were supposed to be at several events, so whether you are or not, I will be there.  In one more day, I may get the chance to meet you both.  I am incredibly nervous that you won't like me, despite the fact that every child who knows we want to adopt, your siblings included, has assured me that you will love me.  I hope you do, and I am a realist and know that you may not.  Soon, we may find out.  And, not much longer after that, we may have you home.

Love forever and always,
Mama